This month I will be entering in a photography competition. I’m doing a landscape photograph. I love the picture I picked because it gives me a mysterious vibe. In my opinion, the overall picture is perfect. I know there will be plenty of other great photographs entered. There will be five first place winners, five second place winners & five third place winners. Every winner will get a ribbon and money. Last year I decided to enter, but I did not win. Since then I have taken plenty of great photographs. I’ve improved immensely from practicing. One thing I want to tell you is that if you do not succeed the first time, keep trying. You never know when your hard work will pay off.
It’s currently 10 at night and I’m experiencing a rush of emotions. Mostly worries. For some reason I’m nervous for Sophomore Year. I feel like it’s because so much has changed and I haven’t had to face that this whole Summer, but now Summer is coming to a close and I know that I have to face it soon. I feel like a completely different person and I don’t know how people are going to perceive that. I’m also worrying about future things. For example, am I going to be successful, or will I be a failure? My dreams are so big that they indeed, do scare me. I’m only allowing myself to be successful. Yes, I won’t be successful at first, but everything I do will be a step in the right direction. I have to think positive. I just have too. Whenever I get like this I like to write in my journal. I recommend buying one. It’s great to write everything down and figure out solutions to your problems.
I begin school in one month and I’m actually excited. Last year I did not want school to begin. Here’s the full story on this. Before Freshman Year began I wanted to change myself. I wanted to get my hair done, eyebrows waxed, etc. I wanted to change myself because I thought that’s what I needed to do. The idea backfired. When I went to get my eyebrows waxed I went to a different person. The lady ended up doing a terrible job a few days before I started school. My eyebrows were rounded and very thin. I cried every single day leading up to the first day of school. I was so distraught. One thing that experience had taught me, is that you don’t need to change yourself to fit in. It also taught me patience. I waited a very long time to get great eyebrows again. I still look back on those pictures with very ugly eyebrows and ask myself why. I’m happy that I went through that sooner rather than later. Throughout my first year of high school I felt very alone. The friends I had didn’t truly feel like my friends. Every single day seemed to be exactly the same. I was bored and lonely. I felt like a person in a crowded room screaming to the top of their lungs, but still couldn’t be heard. It was one of the worst experiences in my life. Yes, I don’t have many friends, but I feel happier now. I talked with one of my friends that I’ve known since we were children, and worked through our differences. I feel like Sophomore Year will do me good. I’m starting it happy and I’m planning on finishing it even happier. I feel like I needed that rough patch to see what and who I was. I don’t regret it one bit.
Today is the day when I go through my whole bedroom and decide what I want to donate to the Salvation Army. I like donating to the Salvo because I have one right in my town. There are quite a few struggling families that can’t afford to go to Kohl’s to pick up a $60.00 book bag for their daughter, or a $42.00 shirt for their son. Even I believe those prices are quite ridiculous. Did you know that when an item is sold in the store, the proceeds are used to fund their Adult Rehabilitation Centers? I will be donating a few book bags, tons of clothes and some shoes. Hopefully I can help a child receive what they need for the upcoming school year. Feel free to check out the website here https://donate.salvationarmyusa.org/